On the night of my birthday, I had an individual say some things that were pretty offensive to me. I have not been able to process through them properly, and honestly, it's driving me absolutely insane. The first words said were that my "vision is skewed." After that, the individual went on to say that after I returned from Spain, I will actually have "life" and "excitement." According to this person, I also think I know everything and don't want to ever hear any advice.
Simply and clearly put, this person does not know me; I haven’t had a one-on-one conversation with this person in years. This fact should take the heat off the burn, but it doesn't. I despise knowing that someone has such a warped perception of me. I know exactly how he has me pegged: a girl who loves America and would be content with never experiencing anything else. A girl who is forced to go to Spain because of her major and is excited only about posting pictures on facebook of her excursions. A lifeless, crabby girl who thinks she knows it all. These falsehoods derive from seeing a quiet girl and making assumptions without sitting down and truly digging into her character.
The truth is that I’m not too fond of the American culture, and I don’t even see myself here in the future. I adore different culture: exploring different food, people, and land. I added a major to accommodate the Spain trip. I post a picture to facebook maybe once a year. I am full of life only because my Lord and my God pours into me every single day. I have a fervent passion and excitement for my call in this world. I strive to learn and hear other perspectives and viewpoints. I love discussions.
I don’t think I’m going to Spain with a closed mind and a “skewed vision."
On the contrary, I’m going there as a witness to Jesus Christ, which means being open, compassionate, and solid in my beliefs and identity. I’m going into this new adventure with all that I am, waiting in expectancy at what the Lord calls me to do in this beautiful and rich country.
CON TODO MI SER.
