Child of God

I am a child of God.

I am not perfect

I am a sinner

I have a heart that desires to seek the Lord

I have a mind that brutally battles against my true beliefs

I have an anxious demeanor

I am fearful of the future and my health and my life and my soul

And everything else there is to fear

I have the inner tendency towards peace

But this is often clouded by the anxieties of the frantic world

I want to relax

I want to live with little riches

I want to be dependent on God and glorify Him through that

I want to have reason to fear but yet let my heart be tranquil

I want to be still

I want the presence of God to linger with me always

I live in a country that is free

But where Christians are still openly persecuted

I live in a world that is fallen

Where grief runs rampant

A world that is powered by selfishness and greed

Where every person is controlled by these characteristics

I am selfish

I am greedy

But I understand and strive to change

I want to rebuke these innate human desires

I want to have selfless faith

I want to love

I want to give

I want more of Jesus

I am an introvert

I am not the world’s most accepted personality

I am not accepted or understood by many

But I have true authentic friendships

I want to be loved

I want to be protected

I am taken care of by someone who is higher than I

I am loved

I am protected

I have a Savior

I am not perfect

But I am a child of God

the constants

Why must the constants of life be overlooked? Adoration is often given to those things that pop into your life for a little while. It’s exciting when a new friend comes into a life, and the focus is often placed on that person. Those new friends are a blessing, and thought is placed on those people daily. Sometimes they only stay for a little while, but then you move onto another fresh new person that comes into your life. The focus then becomes on them.

            But what about the constants?

            What about those people who never leave, who were there since your beginning? Your attention on them is most of the times lessened compared to others. They’re always there. They come to all your important events. Of course, it’s not a question that they’re there. They’re part of your foundation that you have built upon as you grow up. You’re not surprised by their presence, and therefore the constants are overlooked.

            But is that the way it should be?

            People can’t be in your life forever; we are only finite as humans. There comes a point when a constant in your life has to be taken away. Unlike the people who come and go and receive all the appreciation, these people have been there since your beginning, but now no longer can be. Your constant is gone. Your foundation has been shaken.

            Tendencies like this are only natural for humans to have. The people closest to you are often overlooked and ignored. Instead the focus is placed on those temporary people that you just can’t stop hanging out with and talking about. Can we rewrite this? Can the constant people in life start to be the most appreciated? We need to start shifting our focus to these people and savor every moment with them. Because you may never know when they may be taken away, leaving your foundation shaken.