Child of God

I am a child of God.

I am not perfect

I am a sinner

I have a heart that desires to seek the Lord

I have a mind that brutally battles against my true beliefs

I have an anxious demeanor

I am fearful of the future and my health and my life and my soul

And everything else there is to fear

I have the inner tendency towards peace

But this is often clouded by the anxieties of the frantic world

I want to relax

I want to live with little riches

I want to be dependent on God and glorify Him through that

I want to have reason to fear but yet let my heart be tranquil

I want to be still

I want the presence of God to linger with me always

I live in a country that is free

But where Christians are still openly persecuted

I live in a world that is fallen

Where grief runs rampant

A world that is powered by selfishness and greed

Where every person is controlled by these characteristics

I am selfish

I am greedy

But I understand and strive to change

I want to rebuke these innate human desires

I want to have selfless faith

I want to love

I want to give

I want more of Jesus

I am an introvert

I am not the world’s most accepted personality

I am not accepted or understood by many

But I have true authentic friendships

I want to be loved

I want to be protected

I am taken care of by someone who is higher than I

I am loved

I am protected

I have a Savior

I am not perfect

But I am a child of God